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Well its been a while since i logged on, Truthfully it still hurts what I went through the monster had bitten my left bust and damaged it I am :) as I have just had my bust re done and dont feel he is with me anymore. I am still working very hard on my charity and modelling and not going to give up its goes with out say "the hoxten whores " didnt defeat me and i am not stronger than ever.

Its been almost 10 months now and coming upto a year in October. After the attack I continued as I had to for my sons sake. My career hit hight shortly after the attack which was extremly difficult I did not want him to win.I had already lost so much My self, spirit , self confidence,self as I could not relate to the person I was als reactions from family have become a major issue as they could not deal with what happend and chosen to reject me.Attitudes need to chance Glamour Model, prositute or whatever you do no one says " come put drugs in my drink do they".They also don't realise what it does to a person who has suffered rape. also suffered injustice. I moved forward from being a victom however after the injustice I became one again my whole world shattered. Now jobless no confidence and weight gain the loss of self has reappeared. Currently having hypnotheropy and trying to free myself of these emotions.A once Bubbly outgoing confident girl has disappeared need to get her back, do the attackers realise that they dont just hurt a girl but kill the spirit they once was???

Hi I too am having a simular promlem except I bleed alot after the trauma back in september 2008 since then I have a cycle but they are much much heavier and very bad Pmt also pains and alot of the feelings brought back to service also feel exhausted and nausea. I don't think people are aware that how difficult things are after this happens so I know what your saying all is magnatized by a million. Also your mind never stops life is difficult enough anyhow than to have to deal with this. I am sorry this too happend to you. Each case is different but I do have an understanding. I feel very alone at times because worried people think I am going on about it the truth is it never goes away we just have to try and live with it. We are all different but if you need to talk pm me x

really upset you deleted a blog of mine why?

Back in September 17th I was drug raped in Cardiff by a man who I can only describe as a monster and currenltly walks our streets unknowingly if he will strike again. Luckilyy I managed to get out of the hotel room to reception stood naked frightened to death. I tried to screem but it would not come out. The police thought it would be a great idea to leave me in a cell for 17 hours whilst they found a car to bring me home. He was also in the same building I was also left alone by them at the hospital. I am 25 years old a mother also the way i was treated all round way bad enough to go though this after just being told I had been raped I never known as I had been druged with Ketamine.I have been through hell and come through the otherside untill now having been written to from the cps I feel more alone than I ever had. Apparently the dna found on my underwear along with the bitemarks on my body was not enough. However a officer muttered under his breathe its all about funding, Lack of it. Makes you realise more so just how unsafe we are.

 After effects of Rape

Loss of self , Inviolated, abandend by family as no one knows how to deal with it, angry, inpain contantly. Now Injustice